My new passion is faces.
because faces tell stories,
faces express emotion,
and the faces i create are a part of me.
AND i have learned to do them my own way---
And more importantly i now believe that it is the perfect way for me to create them!
First let me tell you how i got here...
i have been drawing faces for several years,
Most often not very well.
They have slowly but surely gotten better--- gotten to a place i started falling in love with them.
mostly because of practice,
also because in Sept 2017 i took a face class from Ardith Goodwin
-she is who told me to practice---lol.
And i got a workbook that showed me more ways to do the pieces parts
i practiced... and practiced.
i would get discouraged and give up.
But then something would spark the desire for me to try again.
i tried really hard to do classic style faces, it didn't work for me.
i spent hours fighting with myself about how they looked--- if they were good enough.
i could not make the faces look "real".
Please keep in mind this was a hard fought battle of an entire year!
Then i took what i learned and made it mine.
"Real" became less important, as i see faces became my focus.
Fast forward to Sept 2018
i take a class with Ardith and Shauna Meiri in Mobile, AL;
in the Magikal studio,
with two teachers that make the perfect team.
Together they are everything an artist/ student dreams of having...Seriously.
"what do you really want to do? what calls to you? what does your soul long to create?"
Faces, i want to do faces... but i don't think mine will be accepted by the world.
"Do you like them? do they make you happy? do them for you. Show them to the world or Not...
but do what you love."
Shauna even offered to make me walls so no one could see what i was doing.
Suddenly i felt SAFE, and didn't Need walls.
So when Ardith said, "quit playing with those circles and start painting the face!"
i did it!
It was already the afternoon of the last day of the class,
but i started.
And then i got excited about it...
AND then i got the opportunity to work in this incredible studio an extra day!
So i kept working, and soaking up the Magik.
And my first face was born... Eleana Rose the Wise Spirit, with an old Soul and Kind eyes.
She is exactly how i wanted her to be seen.
Now i have been home several weeks,
and i am practicing drawing my faces almost nightly
(sometimes Mom duty hampers me...it is my choice to be Mom first in these moments).
Many afternoons i practice drawing lips, noses and eyes.
i am getting comfortable in working with these pieces parts.
The parts are coming more easily, so i know the wholes will keep improving.
Sometimes i am still afraid to paint, i find things that keep me from it
(i am working on this Fear...learning to move through it).
But, i do know it feels good and right now.
The practicing + belief is moving me forward much more quickly.
i am even working in an aRt journal! Wow.
So Faces because they are a part of me that i am working on, moving forward with,
practicing. Much as i am with other parts of my Life.
Practicing really does change things... the difficult becomes much easier.
i keep improving, and now because i understand how to "correctly" do the pieces parts---
i am able to play and really express myself and create my aRt.
Here I AM World!
I am moving forward through the Fear--pushing past it.
What a lovely feeling it is to be learning, and moving past the Fear of my aRt being seen.